He had kept his promise to me, making me think, dragging me to the road, albeit a road not taken, to haunt me forever. The spectre of the political, as intrinsic as the vestiges of thought that could never go from the dim mind--all sought in vain and yet never unsought...there he was--as always clasping and unclasping the fingers...trying to hold on to something, as if never there. What could the songs do? Could they change the world? Could they feed the have-nots? The questions were all simple...much like their answers...holding on to the wind a touch more before blowing away. The old grit in the bone was still to induce the time, as if ever been...for the "ever"...for the "been"...to erupt... to explode...songs with the ringing core of truth--our very own "ganola", caretaking the voices as well as the silences in truth in what he would call a guardianless and intolerable time. There was a heap of words inside the heart and thus the courage to climb the word-mountains from the beloved time. The pins were fixed.
He named them...the loved ones...of music...of life...so many names...so many, a little too many, lost in the clockwork. He insisted the lights to be on. He wanted to see...to look..."to see to look"..."to hear to listen"... to feel the bond...preserve it.
"Bhange jeno janlar garad shobar"
----my way of loving what would be termed the 'political'...
"Tomar chokhe alokborsho korbe jokhon gan rachana
Tokhon tomar ratri chhunte amar emon kangalpona"
----my way of loving what I now derivatively call the 'two of love'...of rupture...of company...
He always made me understand their affinities. Love was more political than ever in the barricade of kisses...weaving on.
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