Friday, December 28, 2012

Dream Button



When do we meet? What do we meet? The face. It speaks. The eyes, the mouth, all the little lines, all the little curves: signs readable and unreadable.

The angular vision and its different contours change them . The faces alter but does the gaze alter? From deep down, the eye sees the object standing out: from a body with a face to a face with a body. Does the body need the face? Perhaps! A painted face…a real face…a body hiding the face…that little glint in the eyes stretching out. They all tilt the frame and push it from within.

Then we have a two. A two of faces: two different gazes but more or less in the same direction. Difference remains though; both in the subject and in the object.

How the form of the body and the face mingle with the space around and how the space constitutes them differently are our possibilities.

Possibility. That’s the key word. Let us possibilitate.




We turn to them. They are the hollow men, the stuffed men, emerging from dreams that have become their world. We are coming down to basics…fundamentals; as if the word “fundamentalism” can finally breathe easy now! We are moving into the body of possibilities where every moment is a pure invocation to chance.


The face is one of the sacks. It’s a face when it’s not a sack. It’s the sacks which create a series and the face participates.

The body is coming into being. The hands and legs are crawling their way out of the womb. That’s motor function for you…still in a dream…still not born properly.

Is this a light where you see faces? How much does it keep back? How much it lets go or how little! Where there was a face once is a blank page with its dull white virginity!

Dream is a screen. It hides the face like a shroud but screen is also where you see images…the horses in an archetypal dream, as it were!  The more you try to hide your face, the more they catch you! The psychic history of anxiety knows a good deal about horses!





Who said you dream inside? Do you see the without as you go within?…as your eyes grow within. The masks are caving in and you think all life is inside? Huh!

Each position restores silence to the objects. A photographic task indeed! And then comes your time to be a shaman…dream with masks while faces evaporate in this half-light that sometimes visits our world! Not all. Not always.

The face is gone but there is shame left still! The breasts are all cloaked. It’s a she-body as if the mudra of the hands could say more! A body on the verge of breakage, she holds on to her femininity!


Somebody said: “ghosts are unresolved issues!” Precise, I must say, absolutely precise! To de-familiarize an object is the task. Unfamiliarity is something else though. This is familiarity turned on its head! It brings out the ghosts in all of us…Let us have a long life! Long live ghosts!

How a photograph merges objects! The balloon-man’s approaching hand is at one with the balloons. We are in a world of metamorphosis.

Motion arrested in time and space is how photography declares its arrival. That’s how it reflects itself or its ontology better still. This frozen dance of forms, human and then no longer human with each passing frame…is this all happening inside?





It’s a collective nevertheless. The bodies that hover, go into the air as if offering a dolly, hands that look for warmth in this penumbra—all collective. Dream is something we do not like to reveal. It’s a private thing , we think! But what if we do not dream our own dreams?

The dream of the other spells out an enigmatic carnival. In the mean time, the world keeps moving and the sun sets as if one last time. A truth is beginning to revolve itself. A truth with horns seeped in dark water. A search-light will hardly illumine it.

The tiger descends through the tree as I listen through you. The tiger is stretched out in punishment but the growl is intact in the night lamp alit inside.

Oh! The difficulty of making out the difference between an attack and a caress! The cats know better. The food chain continues in the dark. The carnage goes on in fangs and snarls. The positions are curiously poised between ecstasy and violence. 





The beach is all ears and the void lets us in. The void which hooks the eye burns with desire still. Foreplay is where their god lies but for them pornography is not a prayer.  Making out, they do not mouth the divine name!

To make out the making out is the task of the dream. It is moving towards its navel now. It’s a button without the buttonhole. The orbs of instinct are at play in this dying light of other times and places.
We strike against a dark wall of vegetation where opacity writes her masterpiece. She is alone with the sea, teasing its magnitude with her feet. She comes back again and again and the sea does what it does best: recede and recede farther.

You see yourself carved in stones. She feeds and you look on. Are those eyes anxious? Is the zone marked yours? How does one own an inscription? You are in search of milk…milk to pour into the depths of the well. There’s man for you. A dream re-turns to his ontogeny.

We are looking at knots, webs, networks and cross-passages. These intersections are the props of a mirrorical return. We are going down the stairs, counting them as we descend. There is always that one count more, uncounted so far.





We are getting a move on here. It’s an on which is in, to be more precise.  Do you get the creeps? Light makes the web go all saliva…the gyres are revolving…revolving it all but is this all within your poor mind? I doubt. 

The roots have encased the air. Is this the death of air? There is still a wee bit between the horns. They are turning into cactus. The light is all desertion now. 

Tree trunks are opening their claws…their mouth. Every mouth…a potential story, always retold in a different life.

The weeds are dreaming an inverted dream. They cannot be fully seen but the dream sees itself carefully. There is serious dreaming in this water. It protects your sleep.





 We are learning to see with a beautiful difficulty and what we see are at the edge of visibility. The blur, the cut, the jerk and the quiver which make way for them conjure a strange affect. This is the explosion and implosion of objects seen through a tearfully winged pair of eyes. Tears have always had tails!

Empty spaces wait for occupancy and there is a series of skulls which have the dead power of gaze. The sea leaves you all glistening thereafter. Each object, a rollicking history but do they really rollick? Theirs is a stumbling history, told, retold and re-retold in an interminable murmur over centuries.

Sprinkles of time and the bulwark of a dance, occlusive again. The image disperses to allow time and space to have their poignant comedy. Three moments of fall: the yet to fall, the falling and the fallen bond like multiplying children in the fog. Photography generates an integrative capsule here. It caretakes time and space. The dream reduces without being reductive though! 

 The balloon ghosts are on the rampage and the menaced faces know little about the floating temple of ghosts.  It’s a light dream, dreamt inside a balloon which is left off with love. It relieves us of our inexcusable lightness of being.

Two thieves at the cross; they do not look at each other. Who’s damned? Who, saved? The ropes know a touch more.

Three moments again: before flight, about to fly and observing the flight. Shadows of time interwoven in a spatial configuration. Does every dream lead to Plato’s cave?





The sand parts with the wind and he sees through. He can see only when the sand parts. He has not been given a head and still he dares to think.

An acephalic thought is all hearing. You are dim in the porous sand and there are gigantic footfalls around you. There are marks on the sand which help breathing. As long as it breathes, you are there or dreaming perhaps.

The porous surface promises a way out. The head is elsewhere and not absent.  The fragments of a body shuffle in between the fragments of a dream. Do they dream the same dream?

The gaze opens a slit and he stares at the half-lit, half-open window. Are you there inside? Can you hear? This is a promised encounter. All promise is hypothesis though! Dream too! Dream too, another hypothesis!
She is constituted by your ruins. Don’t you know, dearest? The lower part of her body has stiffened into a stick now. She is one of those ancient provincial performers on long legs.  Look! There is a multitude! Alas, ‘they’ is devoid of a gender.





Darkness makes up for the vanished flesh. The fish is flying with clenched feasts. Objects are laced with this rare valiance when we bring them down to their bare bones. There is strength in all helplessness, the sea revives to the shore.

The hanging shards signal an arrival…a fabled arrival of the punctum to confront the line. Death is always to come…dying but never really dead…dreaming and still not done with it…never to be done with it.

Dogs are busy with life as another man turns into body and then the body into ashes. Images of life and death love to live together with or without marriage!

What if love-making perpetually joins two bodies? What if the dogs in love are inextricable twins? These are only possibilities on offer.

Death writes itself into time and onto space. Nameplates reveal the original and the final address. And yet they are not addressed to anyone in particular. Claws have inscribed death on names. A proper name dies soon.

The hand and the foot look alike. Image is a great leveler. There is a dream atop the monkey-mountain and it knows the precise interval between the dead hand and the living foot. The dead hand holds on to the thread still claiming more life than life itself. Death smoking up into a shrine halts for a moment and sees life in a succession of dreams.  


Photographs by Arko Datto

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

The Pen and Death

The pen writes death

Your room but no you

There is no intimate you in English language

The pen is in need of death

I sleep here in the room beside

The afternoon is written evening

It evenings without the afternoon

There is no pen in death

And the dream of a care

Not taken

Not taken of...


Thursday, August 30, 2012

Of Reprehension

The mind growing apart
A password fails in silence
The body afar
Growing apart still
The dumb clockwork
Of stock-taking
And reprehension...

Words will always hurt time
As they crumble out of space

Monday, August 20, 2012

Pet Kata Shunyo



Pet Kata Shunyo: My Storylet ['Jhurogolpo'] which was published in the fifth issue of the Blogzine Kalimati, August 2012

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Sunday, July 22, 2012

Jamak: A Bengali Story Written and Published in 2006












An unknown errand and a spiral voice of the Master: A story about a strange appointment by the sea






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Sunday, July 15, 2012

That Boy by Sandipan Chattopadhyay


                                                 















Hey, what about your parents?

No…thing.

Both dead?

Yes.

Sister?

No.

Are you all alone then?

Yes.

--- (Silence) ---

What do you do?

I beg.

How much do you get in a day?

Twenty paisa! Thirty paisa!

Does that suffice?

Yes.

What do you eat?

Almost anything.

--- (Silence) ---

What have you got today?

I did not beg today.

Why?

Did not feel like it.

Are you ill?

No.

--- (Silence) ---

This is a smart little shirt alright! Bought it yourself?

No.

Someone gave it to you?

No.

Where did you get it then?

Just got it.

Where?

From the gutter.

Oho!

--- (Silence) ---

What about this Ijer1?

My mother had given it to me.

--- (Silence) ---

Did you see your mother die?

Yes.

What happened?

Illness.

Where did she die?

There. Over there.

What’s your mother’s name?

Gouri.

Father’s?

Sarju Prasad Singh.

Have you ever seen him?

No.

Was it your mother who told you his name?

Yes.

How many years since he died?

Many.

How many?

Many years.

How old are you?

Many years.

--- (Silence) ---

Do you have any illness?

No.

Do you suffer any pain?

No.

Do you have sound sleep?

Yes.

Where do you sleep?

Here.

On that piece of cloth?

Yes.

What if it rains?

Let it.

Do you dream?

Yes.

Remember?

No.

Do you see your mother in your dreams?

Once I had seen her there.

Remember?

No.

What about your bowels?

Stiff, like goat-turds.

--- (Silence) ---

Have you heard of Jyoti Basu2?

No.

Indira Gandhi3?

No.

Shakti Chattopadhyay4?

No.

Uttamkumar5?

I do not know Uttamkumar.

Have you never watched movies?

No.

Where does the sun rise? In which direction?

Here! There! Over there! Almost everywhere!

Do you know the name of your country?

Country?

Ah! The soil you are sitting on right now!

B.T. Road6.

--- (Silence) ---

Aren’t you afraid?

No.

Not afraid of anyone?

I am afraid of the police.

You did not beg today. So, what did you eat?

That handi7…There was some curd in it.


Thrown away from the shop?

Yes.

The traces which remained?

Yes.

--- (Silence) ---

Do you know that dog?

Oh, yes-yes. He is my dog.

Yours?

My mother brought it up.

What’s his name?

Robi. Hey, Robi…Huss…Huss.

--- (Silence) ---

What did I ask you in the beginning?

Hey, what about your parents?

One of your eyes is blood-red and all swollen up. Do you know that?

No-no. Is it?

Did you not look at yourself in the mirror?

Yes, I did, but, that was long ago.

--- (Silence) ---

What is your name?

Ganesh.

                                       [This is an interview]


 (Translated by Arka Chattopadhyay)


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1.  A sort of half pant.

2.  Famous politician, one of the founders of Communist Party of India (Marxist) and the
      chief minister of West Bengal (1914-2010).

3.   Famous politician and the one-time prime minister of India (1917-1984).

4.  A friend and fellow Bengali poet (1934-1995).

5. A famous hero of Bengali language cinema (1948-1980).

6. The name of a road in Kolkata, West Bengal, India.

7. “A deep narrow-mouthed cooking utensil used in Indian and Pakistani cooking”—Wikipedia.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

When will the Bells Ring in the Blind School? by Sandipan Chattopadhyay


                



 I have only one story to tell. It is only one story. I tell all my stories with that, although that only story is simply a children’s story.




Once upon a time, that time once, there was a little mouse and a big, stout cat. What a long and fluffy tail he had! One day, there he was: enjoying his nap in broad daylight with his gigantic and hairy tail stretched across the footpath. The afternoon heat was spot on when all of a sudden the mouse awakened him.

Cat: What happened?

Mouse: Eat me please.

Cat (eyes closed): But I am done for the day...had enough of it!

Mouse: But, I have come all the way only for this!

Cat: Ah! Didn't I tell you a moment ago I have had enough for the day?

Mouse: But, it is your job; in fact your foremost duty to eat me!

Cat: Come later.

Mouse: Ok. Eat me later, when you like. But kill me now at least!

Cat (irritated): OK-OK. Put your head inside my mouth. I will eat you soon enough.

The mouse did just that. The cat went back to sleep with his mouth wide open. The mouse kept waiting and waiting and waiting. Time passed and passed again only to re-pass a third time .Finally, unable to keep his patience, he had to insert his tail into the cat's nose to rouse him from his nap...once more, a second time.

Cat:  Now what happened?

Mouse: When will you eat me?

Cat: Ah! Can't you see I have stretched my tail across the footpath? I am waiting for someone to come and stamp on it. The stamping comes...I have my  bite and kill at once!   

Mouse: So many came and went but not a single one to stamp!

Cat: Eh! Let's wait a bit more. Sooner or later, someone will do the honours alright.

Mouse (screeching to himself, inside the cat’s mouth): Everybody…everybody seems to avoid the tail. They are just stepping over it. One after the other in an endless sequence!

Cat: Ah! Don't be so impatient. Let's keep our fingers crossed and wait a little more. If nothing else happens, at least the school-bells will ring in a jiffy.

Mouse: School? What school?

Cat: Yes, yes. School...Can you see that building with a huge fence over there? That is the blind-school. The bells will ring at 4-30pm and all the blind boys and girls will rush out onto the street in no time at all. One of them is very very likely to do the job for us. Until then, just keep your cool, my friend. There is no need to fret.


After uttering these words, the cat went back to his dearest sleep, as cozy as ever with his mouth still wide agape.




    Translated by Arka Chattopadhyay

Saturday, July 7, 2012

Maid’s name is Asha by Sandipan Chattopadhyay




[O' Master by Gagan Thakur]


Many things I need everyday; many things are needed indeed. Anger, sentiment, hunger and so on. Sometimes, I feel quite nice. Sometimes, I feel helpless…can find no defence1. Sometimes I think, I will land up in big trouble—nothing to be done in that case—no defence-mechanism at all. There are other times, still other times when I think I am in big trouble. I turn my head to see if someone is coming—a telegram of salvation or help of some other kind.

“Like a dog.”…I remain silent in sorrow and insult.

If it is not like this, i.e. what is stated above, I speak many things; many things are needed indeed. Many things, I need, are needed. “Fetch me a glass of water”, I say. “You have been here so long and yet if I tell you to bring all the things from my shaving-kit, you cannot! You will either forget the tube or the scissors. If not that, you will at least bungle the match-box where I keep my foam.”

“Ah! If you could wash them properly and put them back to their proper places, how good things would have been! ” I say.

Sometimes I tell her to give me a massage around my shoulder or to go to sleep at other times.

“No…no. you are absolutely good for nothing, to me at least. I will not keep you. So many days have passed and yet I have to say everything to you.” Fuming in anger, I say—“You do things only when I drum them into your ears. Otherwise, you simply remain stock-still.”

Many things I need everyday. This and that are needed. There is hope in every demand that I will get it alright. For example, “Hey, Asha, fetch me a glass of water” or “Asha2, the night is not that young anymore. Come on. Go to sleep now.”


 Translated by Arka Chattopadhyay



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  1. The word was in English in the Bengali original.

  1. ‘Asha’ in Bengali means hope. On a phonetic level  it also puns with ‘asha’, spelt with a different ‘sh’ in  Bengali, which means ‘to come’. This double-pun thus explores the connection between hope and coming. There is a third semantic possibility in the English word ‘come’ with sexual overtones that are implicitly present in Sandipan’s original text.
         
                  


Saturday, June 16, 2012

Postcard Prose: My brief narrative prose which came out in Journey 90s











From Excrement to Cultivation: Working on and through a frozen image


PLEASE SEE THE SCRIBD LINK BELOW:

Jol Jog: My Story which appeared in Abashardanga 2012





Break Fast or is it an addition of water?: A tale of Sentences that culminates in an out-burst


PLEASE VISIT THE SCRIBD LINK BELOW: 


http://www.scribd.com/doc/97052220/JOL-JOG

Bhulu: My Bengali Story that appeared in our anthology of the Oth [2000-2010] in 2011




Bhulu: A Montage about explosion, implosion in a waste land

PLEASE VISIT THE SCRIBD LINK BELOW: 


                                            http://www.scribd.com/doc/96543618/BHULU


My Bengali Short Story which came out in the book fair 2012 issue of the Little Mag: Ebro Khebro Rang


Why would I write a story about suicide?----a narrative on memory, shaving and suicide

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Third Person Pronoun

Come 
But 
Do not 
Come back


Back without coming...
Do not come back
Without coming


But come still...still come...


Come with no one at the back
Nothing at your back


Come only when 
There is only coming

When you come 
Without ever back
It's love


Love that can even produce


A third person pronoun. 

Back...On....Back

Going back
Im possible

Going back
Un wanted

They meet in their two bodies
No, it is not sex
Necessarily
They meet
In their bodies
Bodies folded into each other
Forming a constellation

Going back
Im possible

Going back
Un wanted...

Saturday, May 19, 2012

She-Clouds

Do our clouds carry us?
Will they?
Was it the dark from which her face emerged
That made her so beautiful?
I leaned across the coffee cup again
A second time.
Do they?
She broke the window panes
With her brand new red shoes.

The black water down my belly
Began mumbling
A first time

Her face was held where water met darkness
Carrying the clouds
That made her so beautiful!

Sunday, May 13, 2012

My Missing Friend

Do clouds carry the relations in this world?
Carry them in hand or in shoulder...

In hand
The image of my friend
The only one missing
Standing in front of a blackboard
Giving a gallant pose as usual
The blackboard asks---
"What are the factors that influence the velocity of sound?"
A question with so many potential answers

In shoulder
On the board
The answer too!
Only one answer given!
"Warmth"

Clouds on his face
Letters within rain-clouds
And your melodies with missing relations...

[For my school friend Gourab Chakroborty. This is for you, my friend...
He has been missing for 3 years now. Hope he reads this one day]

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

'Outness'

When she came into the room
There were shivers
When she came
She came with the room

Now, time to go
And there are shivers
Yet again
She has pushed the room
Inside
Out I go
Leaving the room outside

...

Trace
Poison
Bodies without love
Traceless
Poison

Body Solves it All...

Body solves it all!
At the helm
Is that all?
All...you think?
Body solves it all!

Air, bony due to sight
Growing rapid
Body solving
It all!
It all...you think?
Body with respect?
Respect it all?
You think?
Quick, too quick
For all that!

Body solves it all!
You think?

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Exi(s)t

Do you say goodbye
To someone you hardly know?

Exit should come with love...
At love...
Where you love...

You say goodbye
To and from
The dear old place...

Poetry is there for timing your exit!

Afloat

A face familiar
Circles into boxes
Dear for so long
Boxes into boxes
Clouds gathering

A face altered
Backed by clouds
Boxes into circles
Dear dead long
Circles around circles

Unreadable lines
On the face now
Never to be read now
Never is memory
Past gathering
Now
Nothing
Nowthing

A face fading far away
Little trace of water in the bones...

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Love is...

Love is where voice and sleep meet
A solitary telephone
Falling asleep
Or
Falling from sleep

Love that knows
The difference
Between hands that tremble
And hands that bid good bye

Or may be
Who knows
Love is that very difference.

Oh the maker of my dear dark!
The everlasting stiffness of your smoking finger!
The sequestered curve of love

Let me be there
At the meeting place
Where voice murmurs to sleep
What it cannot say to itself...


Sunday, March 11, 2012

"Flatness Endless"

The green field of my childhood hospital
Where a silent road-roller stood rusty for years
I always wanted to ride it
Till one fine morning it was gone
Gone for ever
Away into the unrolled digits of time

I always had my way with rollers
Or rollers had their way with me

Now that there is perfect flatness around me
I go back to my disappeared road-roller
In the curves of my childhood

Another green field emerges from the curves
A field with a lot of talking, a lot of sitting, standing and lying
A field that holds me, held me, beheld me
Now falls silent in absence
There are no rollers anymore
Nor is there a single curve left

But the field wants to embrace me
Whenever I see it
I walk away in anxiety
One of these days I will go back to it
Knowing full well
There is no going back to it

I will hold the grass in my fingers one last time
Twirl the stems and let them go
Once and for all

They will be my witnesses
Witnesses rolled out of absence...

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Father

All life contained in a fluid
When all else is deep inside a sleep
Life that slips away through the fingers
Life that gets sticky on the fingers
When all else sleeps inside a deep deeper deepening
Life that contains the fluid
Slips out of the fluid
When all else is no else no all
Only the fluid
Life only
Till his father, his only father knocks...

Timber

They are there for leaving
There is a there for leaving
The ones who do not leave
Are the ones who are not there
The ones who are not there
Are not there for leaving

Eyes which sit like windows on time...

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Glimmers of the Night

“On All that Strand

Glimmers of night. Glimmer, then a little dimmer still. Night is when we see. Where to see is to strain the eyes. That is when they come alive. All that cannot be seen in a shower of light. The little that remains at the edge of light is precious indeed. Population has decreased finally. The places are populated by themselves if not by others still. What is closed is open to images and texts betray reality, here in this half-light. There is death in the light. A death, full of coins: a face darker than ever in the light. In the dark is the jest, as it was in the beginning. The strides of movement make scratches in this dark. There you have a purchase on the dark. It better be. The pursuit for company and a slow scuttling sound. Someone has passed by just now but as if never been. Always but as if never! That is where they come alive. Images restore silence to objects. The waves have lulled them to sleep and everything is there in its final place, as it were. That is how they are…will be forever. The subdued glance of the little boy glides past the balloons waiting for the sky. They sit upon the empty chairs only to go up slowly into thin air. The strand gains the sky. Moment by moment. Moment upon moment. Glimmer gleaming on till dimmer and dimmest still. Night is the time to read love letters or obituaries better still. There is a lump of soil between the two.

At End of Day”


Arka Chattopadhyay

Monday, February 13, 2012

Pain

Everything goes

Such silence

That much too

Everything

Every such silence goes

A voice, known of old

Whispers in the past

Now addressed to others

Others only others

When that voice does not speak to you

Silence starts speaking

Pouring

Every pore goes

That much too

And that little also

That will also go

Silence in there still

It is bleeding

Saturday, February 11, 2012

Riddling

What is unstated in love is stated in loneliness.
What is loneliness is not stated in love
What loneliness states as love is not stated in loneliness.
Love digs into leave-taking as if death had nothing to do with it...

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Inching


A word
Once a name
Is now a word
Again.

She has crossed aslant the name.

Smiles upon the rain and a skirt held up

Leaning as if submitting to his shoulders

Was not submitting to power itself.

She could well observe

How age turns prayers into wails.

An aged word
Desperate
To create new associations
Moving towards the dark
Where names do not drop
Anymore
On praying hands.